Free Write

Some days I just want to stay inside, lay in bed and watch movies. I mean I guess everyone has those days, But I feel like that now, more than ever. I feel like sometimes I'm just a person filling a spot in the crowded halls. I don't have a social life anymore. I work, go to schol or take care of Jacob. I have those random days that I'm free to do as I please because I don't ever get them. I feel like If i were to vanish for a week how many people would actually notice and care? I know it sounds like that I'm trying to get attention, I'm not, I'm just curious....Like George. Wow, I  guess that I can really let loose and write freely when I have time.
So I'm listening to music and I started to sing really loudly thinking I was alone but both my parents walked in my room as I sang That he started to sing along with. My dad and I are so alike, sometimes I think that we are truly the same in most ways. I act and think just like him. We love the same types of music, movies, games, and jokes. I guess I really am a daddy's girl. I think alot of times The bond I have with my dad helps me keep my santy. Even though my dad is probably one of the least sane people on Earth. I guess that makes us both insane.
I can't wait for this week to hurry up. My Memaw is coming home for a few days, my cousins, aunts, and uncles are gonna visit for a while. I get to see Lauren and Spencer , too! I feel like since Lauren moved out we can actually stand being around each other. I do miss her. I think of all of our inside jokes when she's not around and then I get sad because no one else would get them. But Lauren's coming home Thursday I think and Memaw is taking us out for a girls day. I jst can't wait to graduate, go to London adn Paris, turn eighteen, and get my tattoo. It seems like things are taking forever to get here, but I know as soon as they do, they'll pass by so past I might miss big things. Oh well, gotta live in the moment. No more being depressed, no more thinking of what could have been. Dreaming of things, because I know that I will suceed in my life. People may laugh at me and my dreams, but I'll just tell the to 'F' off, they don't know what I've been through, gonna go through, or even what I plan to do along the way. Life is truly "like a box of chocolate, you never knoww what you're gonna get." -Forest Gump. Hahaha I'm watching Dispicable Me and "It's so fluffy!" came on and made me laugh. Now I'm gonna think of that for the rest of th night. Well I guess I'll go to bed, But I have to say stream of conscience writing alot. Night fellow bloggers.