Growing Up

Seasons come and go.
Time flies by in our life.
The way the Earth moves,
Will forever hold us down.

The things that mean most to you,
May never be taken seriously.
It doesn't matter about them.
All that matters is who you are.

Lessons are learned.
Mistakes are made.
Nothing can change the past.
Only the furute is flexible.

Many days pass without a care.
People who follow are not to be cared about.
Those who stay are the true souls.
We can not live without them.

Think of a time when fear wasn't in the picture.
Remember the feeling of the joy and happiness
Was it in that memory from long ago?
Life was much simpler before we had to grow up.

Days may pass away,
But fellings and memories stay

Meals

I wanted to live somewhere where I was appreciated. I love what I did and thought people would applaud for me. I created a new way of living and I get treated like a leaper. Some of these people committed crimes that aren’t that big, but I loved all of those women. They helped me in ways they’ll never know. I guess that’s what happens when you choose your meals in advanced. Oh well there’s nothing I can do know. They’re gone, I’m here and nothing can happen to me now. I get three meals a day, a bed, rec time, free time and even quite time. Some people think about what they’re gonna do when they get out, but I don’t have to worry about that. I’m here for life and I’m OK with that. I don’t regret anything I’ve done. They were wonderful women, I’m glad I had them.

Author's Note: I know It's really short but I figured keeping it short would be best.

Free Write

Some days I just want to stay inside, lay in bed and watch movies. I mean I guess everyone has those days, But I feel like that now, more than ever. I feel like sometimes I'm just a person filling a spot in the crowded halls. I don't have a social life anymore. I work, go to schol or take care of Jacob. I have those random days that I'm free to do as I please because I don't ever get them. I feel like If i were to vanish for a week how many people would actually notice and care? I know it sounds like that I'm trying to get attention, I'm not, I'm just curious....Like George. Wow, I  guess that I can really let loose and write freely when I have time.
So I'm listening to music and I started to sing really loudly thinking I was alone but both my parents walked in my room as I sang That he started to sing along with. My dad and I are so alike, sometimes I think that we are truly the same in most ways. I act and think just like him. We love the same types of music, movies, games, and jokes. I guess I really am a daddy's girl. I think alot of times The bond I have with my dad helps me keep my santy. Even though my dad is probably one of the least sane people on Earth. I guess that makes us both insane.
I can't wait for this week to hurry up. My Memaw is coming home for a few days, my cousins, aunts, and uncles are gonna visit for a while. I get to see Lauren and Spencer , too! I feel like since Lauren moved out we can actually stand being around each other. I do miss her. I think of all of our inside jokes when she's not around and then I get sad because no one else would get them. But Lauren's coming home Thursday I think and Memaw is taking us out for a girls day. I jst can't wait to graduate, go to London adn Paris, turn eighteen, and get my tattoo. It seems like things are taking forever to get here, but I know as soon as they do, they'll pass by so past I might miss big things. Oh well, gotta live in the moment. No more being depressed, no more thinking of what could have been. Dreaming of things, because I know that I will suceed in my life. People may laugh at me and my dreams, but I'll just tell the to 'F' off, they don't know what I've been through, gonna go through, or even what I plan to do along the way. Life is truly "like a box of chocolate, you never knoww what you're gonna get." -Forest Gump. Hahaha I'm watching Dispicable Me and "It's so fluffy!" came on and made me laugh. Now I'm gonna think of that for the rest of th night. Well I guess I'll go to bed, But I have to say stream of conscience writing alot. Night fellow bloggers.

Beauty

The moon shines brightest when you think of a good memory.
The wind blows the hardest when you're trying your best.
The ocean comes to wash away your fears.
The flowers bloom to show you that there is beauty in the world.
A caterpillar changes into a butterfly to give you hope.
The starts shine so that way you have something to exceed.
A bird flies to lead your dream.
Music inspires and describes who you are.
Life is filled with mstries so that you can explore both it and yourself.

Good-bye Letter

"It's been time for me to leave, it has been for a while, and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. But hey, when it's time you just know.

"I guess I'll start by saying thank you to those who helped me get here. Thanks mom and dad for not believing in me. For the past few years all you did was tell me how I wasted your time, money and life. Thank you for not trusting and believing in your only child, it means the world to me. The day I graduated was the best day because not only did I accomplish something, I did it without you.

"Next are those kids in the hall that would tell me I'm worthless. Fine, if I am then you were right I don’t care anymore; all you did was push me to be better than I was. You go and live your pathetic and lonely lives. I've moved on.

"Society I guess is next. I'm not as attractive as a male model, I don’t wear the best clothes, listen to the music you think I should, act the way most nineteen year olds do. I like to be an original, not one of you drones. I’ll do as I please when I please. You can’t tell me to be anything other than who I am. You may think that you can rule and dictate lives, but that’s where you’re wrong. I’ll do whatever I please. If I want to get a tattoo, I’ll get one. If I want to go and smoke a pack in an hour, I will. You can’t tell me how to live my life.

“To those who stood and watched me fall, you can go to hell. I was verbally and physically abused every day. It wasn’t in the privacy in my own home, trust me I wish it was. I was slapped, beat and yelled at in public. I would get slapped in the middle of the aisle in the grocery store. I guess after I turned fourteen you would think someone who cares. As a Child you would stand there and let my father and mother beat me.

“Grocery store manager at the Wal Mart down the street, remember when I accidently knocked over the display of the toys? Remember how I immediately started to pick them up and you said not to worry about it? Remember how my mother took off her shoe and spanked me in front of you because she had a worthless and pathetic excuse of a son? Thank you for not helping me then. It means a lot to me, just thought I’d let you know.

“Jerry Truman, remember how when we were little you were my best friend? I do. I also remember how I kept everything you’ve ever told me a secret. Unlike you I keep my word, or did. You wet the bed until you were ten. You didn’t go through puberty until you were eighteen. You walked in on your brother having sex with your girlfriend of two years who wanted to “wait” until marriage. You sleep with a baby blue dog that you got when you were a baby still. Remember when you stayed the night at my house like three years ago and kissed me? Yeah you kissed me and cried when I told you I was straight. It’s not fun having your secrets and personal problems brought out to the public is it? I think I can finally say we’re even now. I mean you told people a few things that weren’t bad, but I think I caused a little more damage than you expected, huh?

“I guess that’s the end of my letter, I just wanted to say good-bye on last time. Mom and dad, I do love you even if you don’t love me. I just thought that maybe one day you’d be proud.

-Alex Williams, August 13, 1990 – May 3, 2013.

Breath

The sun rises and the sun sets.
The repeating action causes others to to over think.
Your chest does the same.
All this means is that somethings rise and fall.
Thank you gravty.
It doesn't matter if you think of this as something that demads intrest,
Sometimes the simplest things are cause by our breath,
Or the thing that helps us stay warm.
Either way, we need both to survive.